Shelter - When 20 Summers Pass Documentary

Alone On My Birthday

No decoration on, no cake
Nobody remembered this important date
Guitar, pen, brain start to contemplate
They're the only 3 here
For this joyous celebration
Because I'm self-absorbed, I get upset
Mad at the world, how could they forget ?
I was alone at birth, I'll be alone at death
Hope I won't be alone at my final destination
Never really thought it would've happened to me
But that night I sat by the telephone
Never really thought it would've happened to me
I spent my birthday all alone
Birth's a costume with a genetic script
We play some role that we'd like to fit
And never admit that we're full of it
And live life in some sort of dazed hallucination
I'll never lament because life is brief
Our bodies are changing like the autumn leaf
It's said that time is the greatest thief
And beats and cheats this entire population
But it's alright, home tonight, just suits me fine
I don't mind spending time with my mind all alone

"Alone On My Birthday" ~ Shelter

So I had started to become pretty bummed about turning 30 (funny how I got my triple X's on my 30th year.) I was beginning to think that I was going to be spending this day alone because some of my friends had started acting like non-friends. But life has a way of giving you something to make you smile when you least expect it to treat you right, so I won't be alone on my birthday after all =)

senseless violence poisons the mind

Anger about the world around us has been filling my mind lately. Personally I've been feeling more annoyed and pissed at the people around me, people on the streets and subways and the people that claim to be my friends.

I spent last night listening to Shelter over and over and really paying attention to the lyrics more and more, I have a friend that is a Hare Krishna and haven't thought about what that means till now. With how much this world has been pissing me off I think it's poisoning me. My closest friend just lost a brother due to senseless violence and it kills me inside. I really feel like this world won't change for a very long time, now that means I'm not about to stop trying, but I need to find a way to keep it from poisoning me.

I'm not sure how much I understand about Hare Krishna, but to me it seems far more posion free than chrisitanity or any other religion. This world has become a slaughterhouse to the victims of religous fanactics. My own country is failing prey to mindless zombie bible thumpers.

I just know, that from now on I need to figure out how to clear my mind the same way I've cleared my body of the poisons our society thrusts upon us.